At this time four years ago I was literally dying. I had signed up for Wisconsin's Badgercare in October of 2009 and had to wait until January first 2010 for the HMO to kick in, I was in surgery January third. I can only say that God held me up until the time came for the insurance to be in full force. God also lead the right doctors me in order to be properly diagnosed, fixed and then make a full recovery.
On a financial level, I was able, to once again, pull my house out of foreclosure. I was able to get a modification and almost forty thousand was dropped off of my balance, all due to HAMP. I am still dependent on SSI/SSDI and foodshare, which I am thankful for every day for it. I have been watching the news on these issues and know there are others in a similar situation as mine and are suffering due to decisions being made by those in Washington. I am truly grateful for this assistance, without it we would have lost everything. I still make and sell things at a local farmers/artisan market during the Summer. Although this year I wanted to enjoy time with my family, they have been a huge source of comfort and support, I wanted to reciprocate the time and attention they have given to me. Whenever we spend time together, the world melts away and everything that's going on out there is left behind, at least for a little while.
Health wise, I have had a few scares but overall am doing very well. I have been stable now for three and a half years! If I had followed the course most have, that have this disease, I would be on my third surgery. I developed new growth shortly after the surgery in 2010 but for some reason it has stopped growing. I would like to know why, because I would like to keep doing whatever it is that has stopped the growth! I do have moments when I don't feel so great, but if I stay quiet for a little while it passes. The hernia causes more discomfort than the mucinous tumors do. Despite that, I am able to get up every morning and control my day, I don't dwell on my condition, there is to much to be done to give it much thought. I truly understand and appreciate the gift I was given, the gift of life. Life really does take on a whole new meaning when you realize you almost lost it. You appreciate the good things in life, learn from the bad and work what is good toward others. I read a quote from Erma Bombeck that sums it up perfectly...'when I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I do not have a single bit of talent left, and I could say, I used everything you gave me.'
I will continue to post information as I receive it from advocacy groups here in Wisconsin. They work hard to make sure we have the facts on what's happening and the decisions being made by elected officials. Thank you for following along all these years!
On a financial level, I was able, to once again, pull my house out of foreclosure. I was able to get a modification and almost forty thousand was dropped off of my balance, all due to HAMP. I am still dependent on SSI/SSDI and foodshare, which I am thankful for every day for it. I have been watching the news on these issues and know there are others in a similar situation as mine and are suffering due to decisions being made by those in Washington. I am truly grateful for this assistance, without it we would have lost everything. I still make and sell things at a local farmers/artisan market during the Summer. Although this year I wanted to enjoy time with my family, they have been a huge source of comfort and support, I wanted to reciprocate the time and attention they have given to me. Whenever we spend time together, the world melts away and everything that's going on out there is left behind, at least for a little while.
Health wise, I have had a few scares but overall am doing very well. I have been stable now for three and a half years! If I had followed the course most have, that have this disease, I would be on my third surgery. I developed new growth shortly after the surgery in 2010 but for some reason it has stopped growing. I would like to know why, because I would like to keep doing whatever it is that has stopped the growth! I do have moments when I don't feel so great, but if I stay quiet for a little while it passes. The hernia causes more discomfort than the mucinous tumors do. Despite that, I am able to get up every morning and control my day, I don't dwell on my condition, there is to much to be done to give it much thought. I truly understand and appreciate the gift I was given, the gift of life. Life really does take on a whole new meaning when you realize you almost lost it. You appreciate the good things in life, learn from the bad and work what is good toward others. I read a quote from Erma Bombeck that sums it up perfectly...'when I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I do not have a single bit of talent left, and I could say, I used everything you gave me.'
When
I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not
have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you
gave me'.
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Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/ermabombec106409.html#xm11GgHEHOMYHz53.99
I will continue to post information as I receive it from advocacy groups here in Wisconsin. They work hard to make sure we have the facts on what's happening and the decisions being made by elected officials. Thank you for following along all these years!
When
I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not
have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you
gave me'.
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/ermabombec106409.html#xm11GgHEHOMYHz53.99
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/ermabombec106409.html#xm11GgHEHOMYHz53.99
When
I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not
have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you
gave me'.
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/ermabombec106409.html#xm11GgHEHOMYHz53.99
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/ermabombec106409.html#xm11GgHEHOMYHz53.99
When
I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not
have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you
gave me'.
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/ermabombec106409.html#xm11GgHEHOMYHz53.99Since then I have seen some interesting things. Shortly after returning home from the hospital, I watched the President sign into law the ACA, I watched as lawsuits quickly followed. I watched as the Supreme Court upheld the law. I watched politicians use it to campaign on, to replace and repeal, to repeal and used it to shutdown the government. I watched the roll out for the Healthcare.gov website go horribly wrong, but knowing it would be fixed. I watched others use it as a means to trash the President. All the while wondering if those that are so determined to bring down the ACA and by extension the President, do they truly understood the fear of having a serious health issue? Do they understand the fear you experience while desperately trying to keep it all together? First, the fear of not knowing what's wrong, the fear of losing everything, what little you have left? Listening to them, you would think that everyone that is sick or has health problems did it to themselves. In my case, a rare disease was not brought about by anything I did, or by a life of debauchery, why is it so hard for them to understand that 'time and unforeseen occurrences befall us all'? They should know the scripture just sited, since they claim to be people of faith, they should know 'that calamitous times can fall suddenly'.
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/ermabombec106409.html#xm11GgHEHOMYHz53.99Since then I have seen some interesting things. Shortly after returning home from the hospital, I watched the President sign into law the ACA, I watched as lawsuits quickly followed. I watched as the Supreme Court upheld the law. I watched politicians use it to campaign on, to replace and repeal, to repeal and used it to shutdown the government. I watched the roll out for the Healthcare.gov website go horribly wrong, but knowing it would be fixed. I watched others use it as a means to trash the President. All the while wondering if those that are so determined to bring down the ACA and by extension the President, do they truly understood the fear of having a serious health issue? Do they understand the fear you experience while desperately trying to keep it all together? First, the fear of not knowing what's wrong, the fear of losing everything, what little you have left? Listening to them, you would think that everyone that is sick or has health problems did it to themselves. In my case, a rare disease was not brought about by anything I did, or by a life of debauchery, why is it so hard for them to understand that 'time and unforeseen occurrences befall us all'? They should know the scripture just sited, since they claim to be people of faith, they should know 'that calamitous times can fall suddenly'.
I'm glad that you made it AND that you are still forging ahead here at your blog!
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